Moving on
Short post - Today, I’m feeling fairly optimistic for the future. As meaningless as it may sound to others; I’m actually pretty cool with the whole idea of finally being divorced. I can even think about the likelihood of her marrying the ass she’s with.
A couple of months back this wouldn’t have been possible. I’d have been full of bile and bitterness towards them both, so, its definitley a plus.
My point - Somedays when going through this divorce stuff, you might be inclined to think that you are just going to feel like shit forever and its never going to change. You think in terms of rage and revenge and regret and all sorts of stuff which whilst on the face of it may well be construed as big negatives; are in fact huge positives.
Why? Well - For me, to get where I am today I just had to go through those thoughts and feelings. As crappy as they were I’m a better person for the experience. I’ve been through a lot of internal re-examination, spending a small fortune in the process, but through doing so, Ive learnt so much more about me and what’s important in life, and to top it all I’m free of a person who just weighed me down with her own stuff. Don’t get me wrong, it would be foolish to believe that I’m completely out of the woods and I’m sure that I’ll have a few more moments of gloom, but at least I’m now sure that they won’t last forever.
That matters, trust me.
[tags]divorce, matrimony[/tags]